Encouragement for My Fellow Adult Ballerinas

Balletomanehk.comAs an adult ballet student, discouragement is a feeling I experienced often since the beginning of my ballet journey. Over the past nine years, there have been so many instances where “life gets in the way,” including repetitive injuries, my father’s death, a major surgery, loss of job/starting my own business (which made ballet unaffordable), a recent major life crisis and so on. Every time something big happened, I was forced to take a break and go on a hiatus. Needless to say, I felt discouraged and fearful that I would lose all my technique and flexibility. The thought of having to start from scratch/square one made me shudder!

There were also times when “studio politics” got in the way of my enjoyment of going to class. And then of course there were frustrations concerning the inability to master a certain step or technique after trying it for so many years, such as the venerable pirouette!

Yet, through thick and thin, I have always come back to the studio, gone back to the basics, and just tried to stick to the routine of going to class, no matter what the external circumstances of my life are.

I have also discovered that muscle memories built over the years aren’t easily lost. One technique I have adopted during those inactive periods was to “dance in my head.” I would visualize myself dancing in a studio, coached by a world-renowned dancer, and let that image run vividly for a while in my mind while I was in a relaxed state. This has allowed me to pick up the movements and steps with relative ease when I went back to the studio. This practice has eased my overall anxiety and allowed me to know with certainty that “not all is lost.”

Another source of discouragement is the discrepancy we see between our own image in the mirror and the “ideal” image we have learned through photos and videos of professional dancers. Thus most of us have a tendency of frowning upon ourselves in disapproval. How many times do you catch yourself talking to yourself in a negative way or tone in a day? Negative self talk seems to be rampant! But does it help improve your technique or artistry? Does it help you enjoy dancing more?

One day I saw this on a friend’s status on FB and a light bulb moment dawned on me.

“Be careful
how you are talking to yourself,
because you are listening.”

I used to berate myself for every little mistake or ugly movement I made in class. The result was that I didn’t enjoy myself as much as I could’ve. And what’s the main purpose for me to learn ballet? I asked myself. To enjoy myself! Right! So when I recently came back to ballet after a six-month hiatus, I decided that I would dance with joy and enjoy every moment of it! Sure, I still make mistakes and look ugly from time to time, but those are no longer reasons for me to stop enjoying ballet. I fill my heart with joy when I dance, and no matter how the results come out, it would be a wonderful experience.

So, starting from today, treat your inner self as a little child who needs to be encouraged and pampered. Give her/him some tender loving care as if you would to your child/any child. Because she/he deserves it!

The more joyful you *feel*, the more joyous experience you will attract. Try it!

P.S. The photo above was taken about eight years ago when I had learned ballet for not so long. Sometimes it helps to look at old photos and remind ourselves of the enthusiasm we had when we started.

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9 thoughts on “Encouragement for My Fellow Adult Ballerinas

  1. Hi Balletomanehk, I wrote a reply but it disapeared… Anyway, the second reply will, be better! I didn’t know you had a blog!! I love your post, it is nice you speak about that. Few years ago I was different, I was affraid of fail and I never enjoyed to express myself freely. I avoided myself to do things because of that. I didn’t feel free.
    Since my knee injury I started to change this and also to separe my life situation to personal hobbies, pesonal challenges etc. What is important to me today is to just do what I love, whatever my level. I stopped to be affraid to fail because I decided I can not fail. I do hobbies for me, not for others or to be showcased. It is a challenge with myself. I just do it and I see how I evolve throughout weeks, months etc. It is ALWAYS better than before. So don’t give up, just enjoy yourself to do what you love 🙂 
    ps: beautiful & graceful picture 👏👏👏

    • Thank you so much for your comment, Aurelie! You put it so beautifully, that you decided you cannot fail. It is true. In life there is really no “failure.” Everything we do and everything that happens are things that make us grow and expand even more. And loving what we do is so crucial! I am glad you are enjoying ballet again after you knee injury. Let’s keep practicing and enjoying!

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